Day 1 of 365

Hopes, dreams, and plans for the next 365 days with a picture of yourself

This is a nice way to start this challenge! Well, for a fourteen year old, I have big dreams. I have dreams of being a scholar in a UK university when I graduate high school. I can see myself having booked a flight to the UK (fingers crossed!) and sharing an apartment with a family friend. Apparently, I can’t achieve that in a year, let alone looking for a university. I’ve been rummaging through the pages of google recently, trying to find full scholarships. I’ve bookmarked a few sites, and hopefully by the summer I can read them.

For the next 365 days -- 31,536,000 seconds -- I hope for the best. I hope to finally stick to my diet and lose weight. I am a very conscious person, and I easily get hurt when people say that I’ve gotten “fat” or “big”. I guess I’m that kind of person who cares too much about what others think of her.

I want to be a bit more carefree this year, like I’d give less damns. I want to be confident and happy. I don’t care what I’m supposed to do to be happy, but I’ll do whatever it takes. I want to be a better person, seriously speaking. People don’t take me seriously, mainly because I don’t take others seriously most of the time. It’s because I’m one prick who seems happy all the time in order to disguise her true emotions and feelings. I just don’t like letting others know that I’m going through this shit and that shit, because I don’t want them to sympathize; it feels like I’m giving them more worries to think about. I usually like dropping hints.

Going back, I plan on taking entrance exams in the top four universities in the Philippines: La Salle, Ateneo, UST, and UP. To be completely honest with you, UP isn’t my thing. It’s a state university, and I don’t think that UP’s the right school for me. I just don’t feel it as much as I feel UST or Ateneo. I just want to take the entrance exams for the sake of experience. I feel like entrance exams are like go-sees, like the ones I watch in America’s Next Top Model. Book four out of four, and you win. I feel challenged to step up to the game and take the entrance exams in the four universities. In my case, if I pass four out of four, then I can say that I’ve succeeded.

I hope that my last year in high school would be a very memorable, heart-warming, and unforgettable one. I hope not to be classmates with idiots, cunts, or sluts. I hope people would give me a chance to show them who I really am, even for the last year. And I hope I make more friends.

I really hope everything comes true. :-)

By the way, here’s a picture of me. Again.

PS, follow me on instagram: idkjustine !! I am kinda turning into an insta-freak (my term for a person who’s obsessed with instagram lol.) so yeah hahah.